Today I experienced a first phase change ... I went from that the refusal to that anger. Bad experience, because I threatened to cause injury to someone standing next to me. Fortunately I'm surrounded by people, including me are close to this pain.
But this time I do not like. I spent the last year working on my emotions, living fully in every experience good or bad it was, and now I find myself suppressing everything in the worst way ...
Tonight I relaxed, I enjoyed every moment, now I'm ready to let go. I do not know when it will happen, but I want to throw out all about it when I'm ready.
suffer. It really hurts. But I'm not the only one to suffer: all around me deal with their pain and I have to do the same to be in some way help others. 'Fuck the phases ... I do not have time for all the others.
I celebrate my love for Walter, do not persevere in an obstinate closure, though it may be hard at first.
only remains a great fear. To appear in my world and find that it is no longer the same, missing a guide, a reference point ...
Who tells me to get started, I temporarily downsizing their ambitions and starting to build something of my own.
Who tells me that Walter gave me a solid foundation and unique, a new way of thinking about diving, a number of key points with which you can do anything.
They are absolutely right. I told you that I'm surrounded by wonderful people.
The fear remains, but I have to deal with it without using it as an excuse to pull back, without throwing the air (actually, the fish) the work of the last two years.
" Take your time and trained rigorously. Less alibi you create and work better. "
... guess what it was ... =-)
I had not realized yet, but I want to go underwater.
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